Each night before going to sleep I review my day. Did I put my best self forward today? Was I kind, patient, giving and honest? Or was I quick to anger and selfish? Do I owe anyone an apology? Engaging in this daily inventory helps keep me in check.
I find more often than not, if I stray away from this daily self appraisal the negative parts of my character tend to pop up. I can't allow this to happen. In my quest for my better self to be forefront in my life I have to be diligent with this. Keep moving in the right direction.
Recent events with a loved one in my life have me pondering my actions. I keep finding myself in the same situation and I continue to cling to hope that things will change. But what I have failed to accept is I have no control. Things just aren't always going to go my way. I cannot dictate another persons actions. I can only govern my own.
Repeating the same thing over and over expecting different results. Insanity? Such a harsh word. But I have to wonder, if I allow people or situations to affect me and if I repeatedly allow myself be to be hurt, isn't that insanity? When does hope for the better become unbalanced?
I just answered my own question. A clear indicator should be that I have repeatedly been hurt. To remain hopeful that things will magically turn around is what is out of balance. I have become codependent. This inhibits change.
It is a fine line, isn't it? To strive for positivity and yet not go too far into blindness of self. In effect, inaction. Hope can only get me so far. Then it's up to me. Rather that sit idly by and allowing things to happen to me I can turn it around by taking action. In the interest of my body, mind and spirit I cannot remain complacent.
I can continue to work on me and that's what I plan to do. Continue being my usual positive self and let others handle their own stuff.
I recognize that I've been somewhat vague in this post. Sometimes it's unwise to reveal all of the facts surrounding a situation. I hope my meaning shines through.
Thanks for listening, you always help me. Smile.
See you soon!